FAILURE Composed by Peris N. Wamutitu.

Failure is a human feeling that leads,
to a welling up of emotions,
resulting in self rejection, self pity,
agony, anger, disbelief,
low self esteem, low self drive and,
the ardent desire to give up,
the efforts and the resources that were put in,
in an effort to avoid,
this very much dreaded event,
pass before ones eyes,
like from a film tape,
on an ancient film projector,
step by step detailing,
every tireless effort put in,
the resources that went into play,
 and the end result is nothing,
nothing to be proud of,
nothing to display,
nothing to share,
frustrated, fatigued, fed up,
and in great agony coupled,
with anger and deep anguish,
one becomes indifferent,
intoxicated with negative emotions,
and one feels incapable of achievement,
leading to laxity, loss of interest,
and the lack of the initial self drive,
the end result is uncertainty,
of what to do  next,
then one remains undecided,
on what steps to take,
due to the unwillingness,
to accept the fate at hand,
ridicule, remorse, resentment,
come in like a storm,
and become a constant,
companion and reminder,
of this unfortunate tumble,
that led to a free fall,
failure drains away,
all initially existing expectations,
it exhausts the body and the mind and,
eventuallyexpels remnant energy,
if any ever was present.

RETRACING LOST FOOTSTEPS Composed by Peris N. Wamutitu

I retrace the footsteps of my life,
that ate back many years,
some seem to have faded,
some cannot be seen at all,
a life ridden with conflict,
fear, anger, mixed feelings, bitterness,
finding the point which the clock stopped ticking,
where time seemed to stand still,
not for a second, not for a minute, not for an hour,
but for almost tow and a half decades,
two decades of retrogression,
of a life revolving around one point,
one issue that never seemed to go away,
one that tore an innocent life apart,
and that disoriented a meager soul,
an issue that brought teard, anger,
bitterness, discomfort, discontentment,
and an endless list of disturbing and unfortunate incidents,
an issue that made the clock stop ticking,
and brought time to a complete standstill for over two decades,
retracing the steps has not been easy,
its been long and hardand full of barriers,
that have been hard to surmount,
others almost impossible to surmount,
has led to broken relationships and,
disintegration of ties that would otherwise bind,
footsteps that had to be retraced by the shedding of tears,
and and indefinite cold war, a war that never seemed to end,
retracing the footsteps of a life once almost destroyed,
by anger and raging bitterness that exploded in the soul,
leading to a raging inferno of mistrust, agony and hate,
retracing the footsteps of a life that once had lost,
hope of joy and satisfaction but that now,
lives to a new dawn, a new life, a new future.